So instead of laying there and thinking about it I figured I would get up and type it out for the world to see and maybe that would help me a little be a little more accountable for these thoughts.
So I signed up for this happy mail thing on SIStv, so excited. You get a partner and you two send each other notes, cards, etc. for the next two months. I love mail. So then also you get a list of the 50+ girls with addys to mail random cards to through out the months, so fun, I think, I could easly make and send each girl a card, no prob with staying home all day. Then it hits me yea right, I talk big, but will it happen, will I send each girl a happy thought.
Come on heather you are home all day, have plenty of time to do ALL housework plus more ,but I don't . Why is this I ask myself, why can't I do all the things I should be doing and more, I have the time. How hard is it really to sweep, vaccuum, do dishes and cook meals. I just never seem to have the energy or the drive to do it. I am so tired of these ugly colored walls, the same stupid food I cook every week, the same routine over and over.
I even made a clipboard to hang on my fridge to help me remember what kind of stuff to do everyday, do I use it, no. Do you ever feel like your life is stuck.
No don't get me wrong, love my family and love my life, I just wish I could get a system and have fun with it, stick to it, enjoy being a stay at home mom. Just never seem to. I get all these ideas and try them for a week or so and then they fade away into the distance.
GRRR! OK I think I have said all that is floating around in my brain. It didn't help to get it out, my brain is still thinking, but at least it is here and maybe having it out and on
Thanks for staying with me for the long post. WOuld love to here what you do to make it through and get it all done.